Quarantine First Birthday

To My Darling baby Boy!

Happy birthday Vivaan!  You are a year old today. A year has passed in the blink of an eye.Seems like yesterday, when I saw you for the first time.The day was Tuesday morning 10:35 a.m. I had spent almost whole night in pain. oh yes! my champ you took your time to arrive, But my goodness you were worth the wait.

 I can't forget that moment when you took your  first breath and the doctor lifted you above, Literally you took my breath away. You were so tiny, so beautiful ,you could clench up up your hands into little fists and scream at the world. You were so perfect beyond my imagination and minutes after you were taking your first sponge bath, All I could think was I had waited 9 months for you, how excited I was to touch you, to hold you and to love you  more than anything else the day was magical!

But you know one thing Vivaan, I had a gut feeling you were a boy from the beginning. I had already bonded with you, My son before your birth day. when you were inside me , I used to talk to you everyday and sometimes when you respond to my voice by your kicks that feeling was amazing!

You won't believe ,I watched Ramayana, inspirational videos, good movies and last but not the least MTV (your love for music )and I think it worked a lot when I see you today. I knew you would be so 'full of life' that might be one of the reason I named you 'Vivaan.' 

  The first few months of motherhood were a roller coaster ride.It bought various emotions like happiness, anxiety ,frustration, anger, exhaustion, gratefulness .But I have learnt more about myself than ,I ever thought possible.

 I remember the days ,I struggled a lot to make you sleep. carried you and walked you everywhere, actually for the record you have never been a good sleeper .But at the same time I cherish the memories of having you so close to me, wrapped in my arms. It felt so relaxed to have you lay on my chest ,I could feel your sweet, newborn smell.
 Those changing nappies and sleepless nights oh God !But all those quiet nursing sessions you were mine and mine only. Your daily routine of crying a lot before sleep had become a matter of concern, We often rushed to the doctor but my favorite moment was when you used to fall asleep on my lap, while feeding.

No matter how tired I am, No matter how sleepy I am, No matter how exhausted I am, giving you comfort has always my first priority.

You have given mini heart attacks throughout the year! One day you accidentally got hurt by wall ,another day you fallen from bed, when you started to roll on your own. 
There isn't even a day, where I work in the kitchen with full attention, any sound, I come running to the room only to make sure you are fine and sleeping. You are too naughty child but I love your fake cry when I put you down and you stop as soon as I pick you back up again (that is annoying! ) but your voice repeatedly saying 'mama' makes it all worth. 


You are my companion in the kitchen, you are my companion when I do sweeping and mopping when you aren't sleeping ,However you create entire mess and my whole day goes in cleaning everything.

 Vivaan you are such a happy child. I love how you make even grumpy people smile and laugh ,wherever we go.Your  gorgeous glittering eyes literally stopped strangers in their tracks. You learnt to push doors ,open drawers. Instead of playing with toys, You play with Tupperwares, keys, boxes TV remote, belan (from mom's kitchen ), We play peek-a-boo and you hide yourself behind Sofa set and surprise me with biggest giggle, simple things make you totally happy. 

The way you grab your meal with your own chubby Little fingers and feed me too with your sweet little smile. You are foodie by nature you crave at whatever your father eating (that's how you tasted almost everything) I love how you scream with glee and crawl to the door when your father comes out from his room after finishing his calls.

 YOU love dancing and I love watching you whenever you hear any song you start tapping your feet and try to sing out loud.

My love for you grows day by day and my heart feels with so much pride when I see you.I hope you continue to grow and enjoy life just as you are doing now, I hope when you are able to read this post years down the lane, You will smile and know that the day you were born was the happiest day of my life.
 I am so blessed to be able to wake up to your sweet smiling face everyday. Thank you for teaching me and being patient with me ,Thank you for your unconditional love. I know nobody would like to be Quarantine specially on his first birthday, But I won't let this ruin your birthday ,even I make it more special and memorable birthday for you. 
         
enjoy your day!

Love you, 
 Mom